Hari ni adik lelaki sulung aku akad nikah. Pagi td aku call umah to wish him everything that I can wish as an elder sister. Aku tak cakap lama sbb tetiba aku lak jd sebak. Huhuu… Letak je tepon, aku nangis sorg². Hehehe…nasib baik tade org. Kalo tak, aiyaa… malu guwe~!

Sepjg tempoh adik lelaki aku ni bertunang, mcm² perkara timbul & berlaku antara famili aku ngan tunangannya. Sori to say, hubungan kitorg agak panas tapi walo apa pun, that gurl had been chosen by him to be his wife & us as a famili member, we just be redha.

So, To Amat...,

Yong ucapkan selamat melangkah ke alam baru. Berubahlah ke arah kebaikkan coz you are becoming a husband to someone. Be more responsible twrds your life sbb skrg ngko bukan hidup utk diri sendiri je. Be a gud husband tp dlm masa yg sama, jdilah anak lelaki yg baik & pentingkan famili kita juga. Yong sygkan ko. Tahniah~!

p/s: Majlis akad selamat berlangsung di Masjid Alor Pongsu pd jam 5.30 dengan 2x lafaz...sekian.

My clique said, I have an invisible barrier inside myself that holding me to go further in my life. My ego, my selfesteem had hold me from allowing myself to be OPEN completely. Why didn't I recognize it? Why didn't I see it before? Or may be I did see it but I just ignore it. Just let it be like that. Without any efforts to seek the answer for myself?

He said, when I answered the entire question with "Entahlah…" or "I don't know.", my mind was set to that 'words'. Hermm…nampaknya, tanpa sedar I've did something bad to myself clearly.

Masa dia cakap tu, aku tahan airmata, tahan diri je. Aku bukan marah even aku tak marah pun dgn apa dia cakap. Mungkin aku rasa ada kebenarannya kata² clique aku tu. Yelah, he is an xperienced person & very much older than me. Kalo org lain, aku boleh pangkah cakap diorg but with him, I'm losing all words. Bukan maksud aku nk tegangkan benang yg basah, cuma mungkin dgn org lain aku rasa aku BETUL. So, it means that I'm wrong all this time?

Sedihnya aku rasa skrg. Susahnya hati aku saat ni. Kalo ya, ini bermakna aku dh buang masa aku & org lain. Terutama org yg aku sayang. Mungkin krn tu aku belum dapat apa yg aku nak. Mungkin juga krn itu agaknya, ALLAH SWT belum izinkan aku utk dapat apa yg mahu. Semuanya krn DIRI AKU SENDIRI?!

YA ALLAH...tolonglah aku...

Hurt – Christina Aguilera

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

p/s:  Aiyakkk...ini lagu aa by this deq non veli² taccing de hart maaa.. dun beliv aa? go go la...lisen 4 ursef..huhuhu...

Jika ada rezeki, bertemu jodoh, kawin, dikurniakan zuriat dan mati tua bersama. Herm…sempurnanya, kan? Mcm dongeng jek but semua tu tak la mustahil. Insya Allah…

Ekceli aku nk citer yg bbrp Jumaat lepas, aku ke rumah sewa adik aku Ijan, mak si Harith my 1^st nephew. Aku gi sana sbb adik aku mintak aku amik dia. Dia nk ke umah aku. 1st thing yg lalu kat kepala aku was KENAPA? Then bila aku tanya dia mcm², sudahnya dia kata dia nk TAKE 5 dr hubby dia. Dia nk hubby dia rasa cemana rasanya tinggal sorg². Dia nk hubby dia rasa risau bila dia takde. Kelu aku dgr alasan dia. Serba salah pun ada bila dia rancang nk dtg tempat aku tanpa pengetahuan hubby dia. Tapi takkan aku nk abaikan permintaan adik aku yg tgh serabut hatinya, kan? So, sudahnya ptg tu aku tetap pegi amik dia kat umah dia after keje.

Izinkan Ku Pergi – Kaer

Sinaran mata, cerita segalanya
Duka lara terpendam, memori semalam
Tinggal segala cinta, tiada kembalinya
Abadi kasih kita, kau bawa bersama

Impi indah mekar, saat cinta bersemi
sedetik asmara syurga selamanya

Pergilah rinduku, hilangkan dirimu
Tak sanggup menanggung, derita di kalbu ku
Pergilah sayangku, bermula semula
Semangat cinta ku, membara, kerana dia, tiada niatku

Tersemat jiwa, setia bersamanya
cinta murni berdua, beribu tak guna

Ohhh

Maafkan aku duhai kasih, izinkan ku pergi..

Assalamualaikum…

Lama giler x memblogging kat sini. Selalu masuk ceking on msg or komen ekceli (kalo ada…) tp xde idea nk menulis. Masa TAHUN BARU 2007 sampai, niat nk tulis tp x jd. Masa TAHUN BARU HIJRAH 1428 sampai, niat nk tulis tp masih x jd gak. Tup tup, ni dh cecah bulan FEB pun, niat ada…bhn dlm kepala ada…ni yg cecuba mengetuk papan kekunci PC ni. Kot la bleh jd karya pendek yg aku bleh letak kat bLog aku yg dh naik bersawang lg berabuk ni. How I shall begin??

Oklah, memandangkan kita dh masuk ke bulan FEBRUARI, lets we talk abt it. Apa keistimewaannya? Hermm…pd org bekerja, x kira la gomen ke swasta ke but exceptional pd yg keje sendiri sbb dia leh wat apa dia suka, bulan Februari kali ini menjanjikan cuti Hari Thaipusam/Hari Wilayah pd 1hb & cuti hetrik 18-19-20hb utk Tahun Baru Cina (yahuuu~!). Apa lg keistimewaan lainnya bulan FeB ni yek? Alaa…korg pun tau, ni la bulan yg ditunggu² oleh para PENCINTA seantero dunia…hohohoho…Valentine's Day which celebrated on 14^th Feb every year.

I bet many of u yg x sabar² nk tunggu hari ni sampai. Yelah, nk dpt bunga la, chocolate la, candle light dinner la even may b a proposal ring…huhuhu…sure ramai yg berderai airmata gumbira on dat particular day, kan? Ish.ish. how romantic~! I'm happy for aLL of YOU frens. Moga hubungan kekal ke akhir hayat ya? ;)

In contrary, I'm not celebrating it. Even I will be quite bz wit the preparation of dis kaming SITE MEETING dat will be held on dat day, the 14^th day of February. But still for me, February is a VERY SENTIMENTAL month. Semua org dlm JiwaNg MoDe…ayukkk~~! Mana taknya, kat memana je, tak kira media massa or cetak akan memperkatakan abt this Valentine's day. The love story is everywhere. The sad one, the happy one, all of them being wrote by all writers. All TV channels will be showing all love movies, dedications etc.  LOVE IS ON THE AIR bebeh~!

Bebaru ni aku ada baca majalah REMAJA. Haa…korg jgn la gelak. Aku ni still remaja tau…REMAJA VETERAN! Heheh…xdelah, bukn aku nyer REMAJA tu…hosmet aku yg beli. Alaa…bdk umo baru cecah 22 thn. Selayaknya la kan? Ok, get back to our main story. Tema keluaran REMAJA pd kali ni apa lg kalo bukan pasal THE V's DAY. Antara isi dlmn dia adalah citer suka duka beberapa pasangan yg sdg bercinta & aku tertarik dgn luahan hati dlm artikel satu pasangan ni. Sket synopsis hubungan diorg ni, diorg ni dh berkenalan & bercinta sejak zaman sekolah lg but breaked-off when they were furthering their study kat IPT. Sbbnya, diorg x caya antara satu sama lain. Memasing igt yg memasing x setia. Yg mintak break was the gurl.

They suffred for a year samting b4 met again bila that boy abis study & keje kat KL. Bila dorg jumpa balik, they became fren. Get tgether back as couple sbb the gurl x caya yg the boy xde gurl lain…so the boy kata dia bleh buktikan dgn syarat the gurl become his gurl again…the gurl rasa terCABAR & said YES…HAHAHA…GILER DIORG Ni!! Alhamdulillah diorg masih kekal sampai skrg. Bahkan dorg makin sayangkan hubungan dorg ni. Yelah, bukan kecik umo hubungan diorg ni. Kenal, kapel, break, jumpa balik, kapel balik, Huh! Lama tuuu…

Wartawan tu tulis yg b4 they end-up dorg nyer temuramah, the gurl have told her yg dia harap hubungan diorg ni akan berkekalan & ada jodoh utk bersama…kalo tak, she is redha & doakan semoga the boy akan hidup bahgia tp dia takkan jumpa dh the boy sampai bila² sbb dia kata dia x kuat nk berhadapan dgn org pernah dia sayang. Insya Allah, inilah cinta pertama dia & terakhir. The boy plak balas dgn kata² yg 4 me, ringkas tp so meaningful. Dia kata, "Saya sayangkan awk dan akan selalu ada kat sisi awk. Moga Tuhan berkati hubungan kita." Adehhh…menetes airmata aku dibuatnya. Syahdu syahdan…sret…srettt… :P

Setiap kita ada cerita hati kita memasing, rite? Ada org punya 1 jek citer, ada org lak sampai berbelas belas citernya…hehehe…tape²…tu hak memasing. Yelahkan, x seme org akan jumpa soulmatenya dgn sekali cuba. Ada org kena cuba byk² kali baru jumpa. Ada org lak langsung x jumpa². Ada yg lain plak, tak cuba pun jumpa. Haa…tu spesel kes tu…kekekek… Apa pun, jodoh pertemuan di tangan ALLAH SWT.

OK berbalik pd THE V's Day, sambut tu sambut gak tp make sure u don't do anything yg akan membahayakan nyawa sendiri & org tersayang korg. Bukan sekali dua aku dgr kat tv, yg aku baca kat paper ttg berita org hilang nyawa masa sambut hari kekasih ni. Cthnya, ada sekali tu aku dgr berita kat tv, tahun bila aku lupa, sepasang kekasih didapati lemas kat laut semasa menyambut hari kekasih. Kot ya pun nak be romantic, kejadahnya naik sampan tetengah malam buta ke laut? Atas darat pun mcm² bleh jd, ni kan pulak kat laut. Memalam buta plak tu. Mmg cari pasal.

So to all yg sambut V's Day ni, berhati² lah. Jgn abai aspek² keselamatan semata² nk buat KEZUTAN utk yg tersayang. Percayalah, nyawa korg tu lebih DIHARGAi oleh si dia berbanding plan surprise giler babas korg tu.

To MUSLIMs, juga wajib berhati² jgn sampai melampaui batas² sempadan hati & iman. Sambutan ni ada sejarah tersendiri. Sebelum mengucap apa², sebelum bertindak apa²…pastikan anda tahu historynya. Lgpun, berkasih dan sayang 4 me is not suppose to be celebrate only on certain day but EVERYDAY. Hari² dekatt di HATI gitu…oUcH~!